So here's everything I ever wanted to tell you:
no one has ever gotten me like you do.

"You get a strange feeling when you're about to leave a place, I told him, like you'll not only miss the people you love but you'll miss the person you are now at this time and this place, because you'll never be this way ever again."

I pour kerosene on everything I love and watch it burn.

if you do it, you'll regret it.
if you don' do it, you'll regret it.
either way you're going to regret it,
so you might as well just do it.

And I just want to get mugged at knifepoint
to get cut enough to wake me up
cause I know that I don't want to die
sitting around watching my life go by

You have this little mindset
that you're not gorgeous
and that you'll break any mirror you come in contact
with because they all know you're not perfect
and you're not running from anyone but yourself.

and there wasn't anything wonderfully amazing about him
but there was something that she just couldn't resist

why do you do this to me?
why do you do this so easily?
you make it hard to smile because you make it
hard to breathe.
why do you do this to me?

you've made yourself a bed
at the bottom of the blackest hole
and convinced yourself that it's not
the reason you don't see the sun anymore.

we sat down
a couple cups in between us
conversation’s become meaningless
all I really wanted to do
was close that space in between us.

i'd like to have my way with you
i'd like to take my time with you
i'd like to lose my mind with you
i'd like to share my knife with you.

the streetlights flicker and then they fade
like every good intention that i've had

she'll destroy us all before she's through
and find a way to blame
somebody else.

Once you are just another cut away,
Now your scarred, And these scars won't fade.
I still know, you don't get something for nothing
Without giving up your soul.

lies are just pretty words
that sound perfect.

is this the life that you lead
or the life that's lead for you
will you take the path that's
laid out before you.

We've got all night just to make it all right
Would you take a walk with me?
I'll give you all I've got, just spare me your time,
And I promise you won't want to leave.

How could I know that everything you say
are lies about devotion and desire?
And I know the spark inside your eyes
was just the match I used to set myself on fire.

Dear Heart,
So black and I know that you're broken
From words that she has never spoken.
So now our lives are laced with a tragedy.

can you feel your heartbeat racing?
can you taste the fear in her sweat?
you've done this wrong, its too far gone
these sheets tell of regret.

Our real discoveries come from chaos,
from going to the place that looks
wrong and stupid and foolish

"Along the way, I’ve learned that you can’t let anyone in too far and you can’t trust endlessly. The biggest mistake you can make is to care or love someone more than yourself, because then you are just setting yourself up for disappointment. Boundaries are necessary so that you can protect yourself, because once you’re broken, you’ll never be fully fixed."

On the outside, you know you're not that same naive kid anymore. You've been through too much too fast, but deep down, at your core, there will always be a part of you that rejects reality, that is eternally hopeful.

Ten bucks says you'll be crawling into bed with me,
putting your hands where they don't belong.
And ten bucks says you'll be putting your
lips where they don't belong either,
but ten bucks says I won't say no.

You kiss a hell of a lot better than you listen.
Maybe that's why I can't get enough of you.
It's true when they say old habits are hard to break,
But you'll always remain my most tempting mistake.

And you get to a point where
you stop feeling sorry for yourself.
You realize no one's going to save you,
so you have to save yourself.
You turn your life around,
not knowing where you're going,
just knowing that you'll do anything,
anything to be happy again.

The saddest things is that people get so used to their image, they grow attached to their masks. They love their chains. They forget all about who they really are. And if you try to remind them, they hate you for it. They feel like you're trying to steal their most precious possession

it's hard going back to people who don't know you anymore

"You aren't worth my time,
and I know I can do better than you"
She screamed at him.
"Then why are you still here?" He replied

It hurts so bad to be alone
and knowing that he isn't.

Feelin' like I just lost a friend.
Hope you know it’s not easy,
Easy for me.
- Taylor Swift, Breathe

Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt.
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.
But people are people,
And sometimes it doesn’t work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out.
-Taylor Swift, Breathe

"no matter what you do or say,
there's nothing you can do to
make people understand you."
-Kurt Cobain-

im sorry i'm not like those girls who drop their dignity and morals at your feet.

live by the sun
love by the moon.

and kisses are a far better
fate than wisdom.
~ e e cummings

sometimes no matter how much it hurts.you just have to give it all up,
you have to move on,you can't stay where you are,
giving it up may hurt,but staying where you are hurts more.

There is nothing like returning to a place
that remains unchanged to find the ways
in which you yourself have altered.

“All our young lives we search for someone to love. Someone who makes us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance to a song of heartbreak and hope... all the while wondering if somewhere, somehow, there's someone perfect... who might be searching for us.”

"Have you felt it too? Have you seen how your best friends love everything about you- except the things that count? And your most important is nothing to them; nothing, not even a sound they can recognize."

"Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it's not because they enjoy solitude. It's because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them."

"Although I hadn't seen him in more than 10 years, I know I'll miss him forever.
I never had any friends later on like the ones I had when I was twelve. Jesus, does anyone?"

"I'm afraid of time... I mean, I'm afraid of not having enough time. Not enough time to understand people, how they really are, or to be understood myself. I'm afraid of the quick judgments or mistakes everybody makes. You can't fix them without time. I'm afraid of seeing snapshots, not movies."

What she wanted was really two things: to be elsewhere, and to be somebody else. Or at least a version of herself that had made better decisions, that had thought more clearly

"And then I felt sad because I realized that once people are broken in certain ways, they can't ever be fixed, and this is something nobody ever tells you when you are young and it never fails to surprise you as you grow older as you see the people in your life break one by one. You wonder when your turn is going to be, or if it's already happened."

"What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.

I have nothing to do but remember people
who now forget me.

Is it worth it?  Probably - but that doesn't make the end any easier,
doesn't explain the comedown, doesn't explain why all that lifts me off
must fall down to the depths.  And it doesn't make the waking hours any easier.

And life, after a while, is obsolete, when everything you cared about
has gone to dust already.

no matter where you run, you just end up
running into yourself.

Just a dangerous dangerous thing
But then every night’s still so much fun
And you’re still out at dawn
I’m clinging on to the wrong ideas but
I never regret anything I’ve done.

I'm tired of being bored,
I'm through with the headaches at night
And my hands, they tremble like earthquakes,
Under the table, under the daytime sky,
Good fucking bye.

I wanted you for nothing more
than hating you for what you were.

I don’t know why I care so much, when I wish I didn’t.
I really shouldn’t care at all.

II put on an act sometimes, and people think I'm insensitive.
Really, it's like a kind of armor because I'm too sensitive.
If there are two hundred people in a room and one of them doesn't like me, I've got to get out

Yeah, truth can lead to solace or a lifelong bender
It’s like wading through a wasteland where a town you loved once stood
You just cry each time you think of when times were good

Why are people always leaving?
I think you and I should stay the same.

Sometimes you have to look twice to realize the beauty.

Eyes light up when we talk about the past
God, i miss those songs we used to sing,
talking like getting away would be the greatest thing
like that's really going to set this free.
but sometimes i just cant sleep.

Well everyone I know has got a reason to say,
"We could put the past away."

The best is when you say the worst is over
It's like saying we had luck with a 3 leaf clover
And you kept saying that over and over
And I still catch you looking over your shoulder
And it's okay.
I know the only times you really loved me
Were the times you weren't sober.

"Blessed are the hearts that can bend; they shall never
be broken." But I wonder if there's no breaking then
there's no healing, and if there's no healing then there's
no learning. And  if there's no learning then there's no
struggle. But struggle is a part of life.  So must all hearts
be broken?"
-one tree hill

More than anything,
all I have ever wanted
is to be close to someone.
More than anything,
all I have ever wanted
is to feel as if I wasn't alone.

I can't say I'm proud of my life, but I can say I'm
proud that I've learned. I've learned that I can't rely
on eve ryone, but I can't expect everyone to hurt me.
I know some things don't work out, but I know
everything that has been for the better. I can't
guarantee I'll be able to walk around with a smile.
but I know where I've been, and where I'am
going. I know who I am and who my friends are,
I've had some tough stuff thrown at me. but I've
gotten by. I'm not one to complain so I'll keep trying
and in the end... I'll know I did my best.

It's what life is, it's a series of rooms, and who we get stuck in those rooms with, adds up to what our lives are.

We are selfish, base animals crawling across the earth, but 'cause we've got brains, if we try really hard, we can usually aspire to something that is less than pure evil.

Everyone keeps saying,
"Nothing helps but time."
Time is all I own.

At some point, you have to make a decision.
Boundaries don't keep other people out, they fence you in.
Life is messy. That's how we're made.
So, you can waste your life drawing lines.
Or you can live your life crossing them.

Do you need anybody?
I need somebody to love.
Could it be anybody?
I want somebody to love.

There's a part in everyday,
Where I lie to myself and say that it's okay
Cause if I don't I think I'll go insane
But the truth is, I only have myself to blame
+ The Spill Canvas

Best friends aren’t real best friends until they love you for who you are,
not what they want you to be.
They are always there for you no matter what.
Even if you’re fighting and they hate your guts,
if you need them, they will be there, no questions asked.
They can always make you laugh even when you are feeling your worst.
They understand you and you don’t even have to tell them.
They are the only ones who know what “I’m okay” really means,
when you’re not.
They couldn’t care less about what other people think of you and when you disappoint them,
they will let you know about it.
They are the only people on earth who could completely destroy you,
but would never dream of it.
They are the ones you spend all your time with.
You laugh with them.
You cry with them.
But most of all,
best friends are the people you need in your life,
beside you at all times.
They are the people you would be lost without.

At the end of the day,
when it comes down to it,
all we really want is to be close to somebody.
So this thing where we all keep our distance
and pretend not to care about each other,
it's usually a load of bull.
So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to,
and once we've chosen those people,
we tend to stick close by,
no matter how much we hurt them.
The people that are still with you at the end of the day,
those are the ones worth keeping.
And sure, sometimes close can be too close.
But sometimes,
that invasion of personal space,
it can be exactly what you need.
-Grey's Anatomy

slowly but surely, drowning in a depression
that i didn't want to realize i had. i never told a soul.
i smiled. i laughed. i joked.

The reason people find it so hard to
be happy is that they always see the past
better than it was, the present worse than it is
and the future less resolved than it will be.

Because once upon a time, we were best friends. And, yes, there's been a lot of bad stuff in between. But none of that matters right now, okay? You need me, I'm there. Any time, any place, anywhere

I have a hundred things I'd like to say to you.
Some scream at you, some whisper. You're
a jerk. I'm about to cry. I know I'm too
much for you. Blah, blah, blah. You're a
real douche bag, but I still think you're cute.

you think you want to die,
but in reality
you just want to be saved.